, to Marvin Ceen and een. . ed t Lo a full sco Stanford. ennis. y-six straig. e love positions for different days and o ernoonquot; and Id shiver.

    But by time my mot  no ennis balls to run aies.  knoraigo tell big jokes to make ottle. en-dollar tips to strangers but ingy s to family.  ernoon ant taking .

    My feelings for Marvin never reace. No, it   from disappointment to contempt to apatic boredom. It  until after ed, on nig I wondered if perher had poisoned my marriage.

    t affect my daug aborted  I , I ly referred to my pregnancy as my quot;groment,quot; and I dragged Marvin doo to suffer too. It turned out  to tcerrible bit of puritanical brainle t seven iny, tiny fingers. And t translucent fingers could move, t iny fingers—so t. I found every detail about o be remarkable, especially t s away from o cry, I knew my feelings for her were inviolable.

    But I  I . ed notence ime,  ter—because of me. ic; ed il  me. And tic gestures all t ;FYI—For Your Informationquot; notes to legal briefs and corporate returns t I o revietom: quot;FYI—Forever You amp; I.quot; t kno our relations kind of reckless be thrilled me.

    try   types ;Am I ing you?quot;  tuned to my every movement I le treasures. e aspects of me—and I mean not just sexual private parts, but my darker side, my meanness, my pettiness, my self-loat  ely naked, and  tly t t t moment.  alloo cover myself up. raigell me somet why he loved me.

    Id never kno it ried to store every one of ts a