ou? It mig ts all you can dredge up? Yes.

    So o kill myself? Ive no idea.

    Youre pissing me around.

    ould you mind c offensive.

    Im sorry.

    But I couldnt believe it. I couldnt believe Id found someone  to prison, I used to abloid scum ing outside t door. I ings s and managers and tV executives. It seemed impossible t tain uninterested in  seemed to matter. Maybe Maureen lived on t. It o lose touchere.

    about your belt? S my . As far as Maureen  fes on eart  to spend talking about my passion for musured for ted to get on hings.

    about it? take your belt off and put it round t your side of the railings.

    I sa it

    couple of minutes  off, passed it around bot tig up, gave it a so c  to die falling back, placed ts original position.

    And I  about to let Maureen jump in peace  us.

    I s  ake. I mean, t ake if to kill myself. I could  ly and calmly, to tin  t I didnt. I yelled somet of t  t point, to me, anyin rugby-tackled me before I got  of kneeled on me and ground my face into t sort of gritty fake-tarmac stuff t on tops of buildings. t to be dead.

    I didnt kno in. I never sail , and t sa. But I kne I got to t o be like a genius to  out. So , So o kill yourselves and Im not?

    And oo young. eve fucked our lives up. You , yet. And I said, ? And  your age. And I en people?

    Including my parents and, I dont kno ed to see ,  you? Id get on a plane to Brazil if I  to pay for  up.

    MARtIN  My first